did you lose yourself too?

poetry & photography

  • i never want to feel this way again i don’t even remember what i said i’m so sorry // h.e.p.
    excerpt from the teen angst files (via maelstromhead)

    (Source: maelstromhead, via maelstromhead)

  • "I’m so sorry for whatever I said that made you feel like you should leave because the truth is you’re the strength in my spine and the heat in my blood and when I sleep alone I wake up crying I know it’s not your fault I know it’s not attractive I know I’m nothing like you hoped I’d be."
  • "

    I. You’re in my head and in my breath, my heart was the only thing big enough to store the both of us. Loving you felt like an asthma attack; loving you is a mental disease.

    II. If vaccines could have prevented me from you I’d likely be an addict. You were my drug, and not the right kind - a dirty needle with a violent sting, I still feel at home when you rip apart my skin.

    III. The doctors told me to “let it pass.” Just let it pass. You are the motion in my twiddling thumbs; you are my thoughts about the Universe.

    IV. I’ve lost my fear of hospitals, I’ve lost my fear of love. Neither of them make sense anymore, and neither does the way you left. Every time I walk out of hospitals I know what it was like for you to walk away from me.

    V. I’m letting it pass. I’m letting it pass. I’m letting you pass me in the hallways without saying hello, I’m letting you off for the mistakes you have made, I’m letting this disease run it’s course and trying to keep up with it on the dirt path of my veins. I’m letting you pass, but they forgot to teach me in health class how to let it go.

    "
  • "

    She shouted it from mountaintops.
    She felt it in her every breath.
    She altered her walk so that every footstep screamed “him”.

    He echoed it back to her from the ground.
    He traced it into his skin.
    His thoughts raced just to think of “her”.

    She marked up her body with countless versions of “I love you”.
    He said it to her until it seemed to lose meaning.
    This was their love.

    He knew what temporariness meant.
    His echoes signified nothing.
    His skin soon washed away any part of her.
    He was gone.

    She loved undyingly.
    She continued to shout until her voice gave out.
    Her walk forever stayed the way it was.
    All she wanted was him back.

    This was their love.

    "
  • "

    I. You’re in my head and in my breath, my heart was the only thing big enough to store the both of us. Loving you felt like an asthma attack; loving you is a mental disease.

    II. If vaccines could have prevented me from you I’d likely be an addict. You were my drug, and not the right kind - a dirty needle with a violent sting, I still feel at home when you rip apart my skin.

    III. The doctors told me to “let it pass.” Just let it pass. You are the motion in my twiddling thumbs; you are my thoughts about the Universe.

    IV. I’ve lost my fear of hospitals, I’ve lost my fear of love. Neither of them make sense anymore, and neither does the way you left. Every time I walk out of hospitals I know what it was like for you to walk away from me.

    V. I’m letting it pass. I’m letting it pass. I’m letting you pass me in the hallways without saying hello, I’m letting you off for the mistakes you have made, I’m letting this disease run it’s course and trying to keep up with it on the dirt path of my veins. I’m letting you pass, but they forgot to teach me in health class how to let it go.

    "
  • "I have swallowed
    so much blood
    because of you,
    from biting my tongue so often
    in order to avoid saying the things,
    the loving, passionate things,
    I fear may scare you away.
    For you like the calm and quiet,
    and there is thunder inside of me
    that booms out so viciously it
    rattles the flowers in France,
    trembles through the forests of Brazil, and
    quakes through every country’s
    grounds,
    and this,
    this is how strongly I feel
    for you."
  • Experimental visual poetry // r.i.d

  • kissmeok:

    love/couples

    (Source: weheartit.com)